Boy, I sure have!

In fact, in this week’s episode of The Worthy Womb Podcast, I tell one of the most embarrassing stories of my life to prove it. My heart was in the right place. My compassion was real. My intentions were good, but my information? Well...let’s just say I was working with a few missing pieces. The story itself is funny now, but what God showed me through it wasn’t funny at all.

We do this with people all the time. We see one decision, one reaction, one mistake…. One ugly chapter, and then we start filling in the blanks. We decide what she was thinking. We decide why she did it. We decide what kind of woman would make a decision like that. Before long, we aren’t just judging what happened - we’re judging her!

If you’ve ever been on the receiving end of that kind of judgment, you know how deeply it can hurt, but what you may not know is that the most painful judgment comes from what we impart unto ourselves.

When Someone Only Knows One Chapter

That’s one reason I’ve been spending time in the story of Tamar in Genesis 38. Tamar’s story is messy, and if you just look at one singular painful detail, you can quickly form some strong opinions about her. The problem is that you would be making a decision based on half of the picture, the worst half, actually. In 1 Samuel 16:7, we are reminded that people look at what they can see on the outside, but God looks at the heart. He sees what happened before everybody else started talking. He sees the pressure nobody knew about, the fear nobody understood, the pain nobody bothered to ask about, and the pieces that never made it into the conversation.

That matters when we’re talking about abortion because maybe somebody knows what happened, but they don’t know everything surrounding it. They know one chapter, and somewhere along the way, they decided they knew the whole woman. If that happened to you, you may know exactly what it feels like to be Tamar.

But there’s another side to this conversation, and this one stings a little more.

What If You’ve Been Doing It Too?

There was a time when I had some pretty strong opinions about women affected by abortion. I thought I understood. I knew what I believed. I knew what I thought she should do. And I certainly knew what I thought I would never do….until life put me on the other side of that judgment.

Suddenly, I wasn’t standing outside somebody else’s story looking in. I was living inside it. That experience changed the way I looked at other women, but eventually I realized something else had happened. I had stopped pointing the finger at her...and turned it straight toward myself.

Maybe you know that feeling too? You believe Jesus forgives. You know what Scripture says. You would sit across the table from another woman and tell her without hesitation that the blood of Jesus is enough, that she is still loved, that God can redeem her story, and that her life still has purpose; however, when it comes to you? Somehow the rules change.

You hold yourself in harsher judgment because you “knew better.” You ask, “How could you have ended up THERE?” “What does this bad decision say about you as a person?”

When Self-Judgment Starts Sounding Like Truth

Maybe nobody around you is calling you those names, but somewhere along the way, you started believing them for yourself: failure, bad mother, dirty, unworthy, damaged, disqualified, unforgivable.

When you live under those labels long enough, they stop sounding like accusations and start feeling like truth. That is where healing after abortion has to go deeper than simply knowing, “Jesus forgave me.”

You can believe you are forgiven and still live like you are condemned. You can love Jesus and still expect punishment. You can read your Bible, pray, serve, show up at church, and do all the things you think a “good Christian woman” should do while quietly believing you still have something to prove. That kind of striving never stays contained. Sooner or later, it starts bleeding into every part of your life.

Maybe It’s Time to Look Again

This week on The Worthy Womb Podcast, we’re finishing the final piece of my W.O.M.B. Protocol: B — Become Who He Says.

We’re sitting down with Tamar’s story and talking about judgment, self-accusation, and what happens when one painful part of your life starts defining the whole woman.

But we’re not stopping with another Bible lesson you can nod your head at and forget before today is over. No ma’am, We’re getting practical here because information without application is just entertainment.

I’m going to show you how to begin recognizing the old verdicts you’ve been living under, how to identify the names you’ve unknowingly been answering to, and what you can start doing when that self-accusation cycle fires back up.

Look, knowing Jesus forgave you is one thing. Learning how to live like a forgiven woman is another.

And if you just read that sentence and thought, Amy, that’s me. I know I’m forgiven, but something still isn’t changing, then I really want you to pull up a seat for this one.

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And if you already know something from your abortion encounter is still showing up in your marriage, motherhood, relationship with God, emotional reactions, or simply the way you see yourself, but you honestly don’t know what your next step should be, I invite you to book a FREE discovery call with me.

We’ll spend a few minutes talking about you—where you are in your healing journey, what keeps showing up, and whether the W.O.M.B. Protocol™ may be the right next step for what you need.

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You don’t need to have it all figured out before you come. Sometimes healing starts with being willing to look at the story again—not through somebody else’s judgment, not through your own old verdict, but through the eyes of the One who knows the whole woman.

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You pray more, serve more, and try harder to be a good wife, a good mother, and a good Christian. Yet underneath all that doing, there may still be a question you are afraid to say out loud: Does Jesus really still love me after what happened?

Post-abortion shame does not always stay neatly attached to the abortion encounter. Sometimes it shows up in the way you receive love, handle conflict, parent your children, trust your husband, and approach your relationship with God. You may know that Jesus forgives, believe every word of the Bible, and have asked Him for forgiveness years ago, but part of you may still be living as though there is a debt left to pay.

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In this episode of The Worthy Womb Podcast, I am sharing one of the hardest moments from my own parenting story. It was a moment that left me looking at the damage around me and asking, “Why did I react like that?” What happened forced me to look beyond the anger and begin recognizing what was being touched underneath it.

This conversation is for the Christian woman who questions her husband’s love even when he tells her he loves her, feels fear and guilt shaping the way she parents, replays her worst moments as proof that she is failing, wonders whether hardship is punishment for her past, and knows she has been forgiven but still does not feel free. It is also for the woman who is tired of religious performance and empty Christian answers that never seem to reach the real wound.

Your most painful reaction does not have the final authority to tell you who you are. Your abortion story does not get to name you, and your worst moment does not get to define your marriage, your motherhood, your relationship with God, or the woman you are allowed to become.

In this episode, we are stepping into the final part of my signature WOMB™ Protocol: Become Who He Says You Are. We are talking about the difference between knowing in your head that God loves you and actually learning how to live as the woman He calls Beloved.

You will hear why some reactions feel so much bigger than the moment, how post-abortion shame can quietly affect marriage and parenting, why forgiveness does not always feel like freedom, and how a false identity can keep you striving, hiding, and waiting for punishment. I will also give you a private, practical step you can take with Jesus this week without requiring you to share your story with anyone before you are ready.

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Prayers for healing.
Prayers for wisdom.
Prayers for our children.

Then, there are the prayers that catch us completely off guard.

The ones that begin with:

“Lord...I thought we already dealt with this.”

Maybe our faith wasn’t strong enough.

Maybe we didn’t forgive enough.

Maybe we didn’t trust God enough.

I’ve discovered the opposite can be true.

Sometimes what feels like a setback is actually an invitation.

Not an invitation into condemnation.

An invitation into deeper freedom.

I’ve learned that our Father is remarkably gentle. He doesn’t expose our hearts to shame us. He reveals what He’s ready to heal.

That changes everything.

This week’s Worthy Womb Podcast is one of the most personal conversations I’ve shared yet. It challenged the way I think about healing and reminded me that Jesus is never impatient with our process.

If you’ve ever wondered why God sometimes brings your attention back to something you thought was long behind you, I think this conversation will encourage you.

Life has a way of planting things we never invited. A painful experience can leave behind fear. Betrayal can leave behind distrust. Rejection can leave behind insecurity. An abortion encounter can leave behind shame, self-condemnation, or the belief that you’re somehow disqualified from being fully loved by God.

The beautiful news is that Jesus never intended for us to simply survive our past. He came to redeem every part of our story. His desire isn’t merely to forgive us; it’s to restore us.

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If you found yourself nodding along as you read this, I want you to know something:

You don’t have to figure this out alone.

Sometimes the hardest part isn’t knowing that something is wrong. It’s understanding why you keep finding yourself in the same emotional patterns, despite your love for Jesus and your desire to move forward.

That’s exactly why I offer a complimentary Discovery Call.

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By the end of our conversation, you’ll have greater clarity about where you are in your healing journey and whether my coaching approach is the right fit for your needs. Together, we’ll explore where you may be feeling stuck and discern your next step. My signature WOMB™ Protocol helps Christian women identify the lies keeping them stuck, partner with Jesus in healing, and rediscover their identity in Christ.

If today’s conversation resonates with you and you’d like to know more of my story, I invite you to read my memoir, Ring of Fire.

This isn’t just the story of a woman facing an abortion encounter. It’s the story of an enemy determined to steal, kill, and destroy, and a Savior whose rescuing love never stopped pursuing me.

Throughout the book, you’ll see how the enemy quietly plants lies to keep us trapped in shame, fear, striving, and silence. More importantly, you’ll see Jesus faithfully step into some of the darkest moments of my life to rescue, restore, redeem, and remind me of who I truly am in Him.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your past has disqualified you from God’s purpose, I pray Ring of Fire reminds you that no lie is stronger than God’s truth, no pit is deeper than His grace, and no story is beyond His power to redeem.

The enemy may have a plan for destruction, but Jesus always has the final word. Read how the love of Jesus redeemed me and has the power to transform you as well, no matter what your past says.

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Every. Single. Time…without fail, He is faithful.

This is a Biblical principle. You can look at numerous places in scripture and see that whenever God asks an individual to do something significant for His Kingdom, He always follows up with sending reinforcements to encourage and help. It really is Proverbs 27:17 in action - “As iron sharpens iron,
so one person sharpens another.”

This is exactly what we are working to create with our Worthy Womb Community here on Substack. It is a safe place where women can come together inside of a supportive and authentic place. This is a home where it is safe to drop the Christian mask and simply be honest about what you are carrying. We can have the hard conversations here that we are not often having inside the church. I have said it before, and I will say it again..I LOVE THE CHURCH! I am an active member of our church, and I DO NOT advocate anyone trying to walk alone in the journey. The Word of God warns us not to forsake the assembling of believers. I am simply saying that hard conversations, like those surrounding abortion, are not typically spoken about in most of the churches today. There has to be a place that we can come together to talk about the pain and guilt that we have silently carried for way too long. My heart is to see that we would one day NOT need this space because the body of Christ has openly begun discussing this very real issue without shying away for fear of offending some.

If we are followers of Jesus, we need to do what Jesus did - He ate with sinners and tax collectors, who were not socially accepted by the religious leaders of the day. We have to be bold enough to step outside of our comfort zone to comfort others, just as Jesus did.

I am so thankful that the Lord is always making Kingdom connections that bless me and help equip me as I go along in the journey to carry forth the mission. Last year, He asked me if I would be willing to reach 1 BILLION women with His truth of love, redemption, and restoration after an abortion encounter. I quickly responded with my typical, “Yes, Lord, You know I will,” and He said, “Count the cost because 1 billion is to START WITH…that is your floor, NOT YOUR CEILING!” I sat there for a moment, a bit stunned by the weight of what He revealed to me. Fear, doubt, unbelief all began to try to well up inside of my mind. I started thinking logically in my human understanding and started to forget that the God of the universe is always faithful to send the resources and reinforcements when the assignment is from Him.

Biblical examples of when God made Kingdom connections:

• Exodus 17:8-13 - Moses, Aaron, and Hur

  Assignment: Lead Israel in battle.
  Support sent: Aaron and Hur held up Moses’ hands when he grew tired.

  When Moses’ hands were lifted, Israel prevailed. When his hands dropped, the enemy gained ground.

• Deuteronomy 31:7-8; Joshua 1:1-9 - Joshua and Moses

  Assignment: Joshua would lead Israel into the Promised Land.
  Support sent: Moses trained, commissioned, and encouraged Joshua.

  Joshua did not just magically appear ready. He walked with Moses before he led after Moses.

• Ruth 1-4 - Naomi and Ruth

  Assignment: Ruth would become part of the lineage of Jesus.
  Support sent: Naomi guided Ruth into covenant, wisdom, and positioning.

  Ruth’s destiny was bigger than she knew, but Naomi helped her know where to go, how to move, and what steps to take.

• 1 Samuel 18:1-4; 1 Samuel 23:16-18 - David and Jonathan

  Assignment: David was chosen to become king.
  Support sent: Jonathan strengthened David while Saul was trying to destroy him.

  Jonathan helped David stay alive, reminded him of God’s promise, and made a covenant with him.

• 1 Kings 19:19-21; 2 Kings 2:1-15 - Elijah and Elisha

  Assignment: Elijah carried prophetic authority; Elisha would continue the mantle.
  Support sent: Elisha became Elijah’s servant, student, and successor.

  Elisha walked with Elijah before receiving a double portion. God often sends people not only to help you now, but to carry the work forward after you.

• Esther 4:13-14 - Esther and Mordecai

  Assignment: Esther was positioned to help save her people.
  Support sent: Mordecai challenged her to recognize the moment.

  He did not let her hide in comfort when her people were in danger. Sometimes the person God sends will not just comfort you. They will call you up into your destiny.

• Luke 1:39-45 - Mary and Elizabeth

  Assignment: Mary would carry and birth Jesus.
  Support sent: Elizabeth, who confirmed what God was doing.

  Mary went to Elizabeth after receiving the angel’s message, and Elizabeth’s baby leaped in her womb. Elizabeth affirmed Mary’s faith and calling.

• Acts 9:26-28; Acts 13:2-3 - Paul and Barnabas

  Assignment: Paul was called to preach Christ to the Gentiles.
  Support sent: Barnabas vouched for Paul, encouraged him, and partnered with him in ministry.

  When others were afraid of Paul because of his past, Barnabas stood beside him.

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Today, I want to encourage you that if you have something BIG growing inside of you that was placed by the Lord, then rest assured that He will supply all of your needs, even sending the reinforcements to help you carry out the mission. I will challenge you to pray that the Lord would use YOU to be an encouragement and source of support for someone else as well. In my non-profit, Fit 4 The Kingdom Ministries, INC., I often refer to a “Kingdom Lift”. This simply means that when we come together and link arms, we are able to lift the Kingdom of Heaven up collectively, as ONE. That way, we can carry more weight and reach higher success. If you want to know more about the things we are doing on the ministry side or help sow a tax deductible seed, please reach out.

Ways We Are Currently Serving Our Local Community:

• Women’s Jail Ministry

• Community Outreach for Area Youth - educating on the dangers of abortion

• Leading a Local 40 Days For Life Campaign - public prayer and education around abortion; resources for moms considering abortion; we also connect them with local crisis pregnancy center resources and offer access to the Abortion Pill Reversal.

• Hosting/Speaking @ Faith-based Conferences - help equip and activate the Body of Christ to rise and walk in the authority Jesus died to give us.

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This September, I am opening the paid side of The Worthy Womb community with our first guided Bible study, Remember Who You Are: A 30-Day Study Through Ephesians.

Inside, we will begin by walking slowly through Ephesians together with Scripture, reflection questions, prayer, identity declarations, and community conversation. This is where we will take what we are reading and ask the honest questions: What lie have I been believing? Where has shame named me? What does God actually say about who I am in Christ?

This is about creating a focused, intentional space for women who are ready to stop surviving in silence and start walking in the truth Jesus already paid for.

We will begin in September, and founding members will help set the table for what this community becomes.

If you are ready for a deeper place to heal, grow, study the Word, and remember who you are in Christ, I would love to have you join us.

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Friend, I know that road.

For years, I could not understand why I loved Jesus, believed He had forgiven me, and still felt like my body was carrying the weight of shame. I knew the truth in my mind, yet there were moments when my body seemed to remember pain my heart was trying so hard to release.

That is what we are opening up in this episode of The Worthy Womb Podcast. This conversation is different from our usual front porch swing talks. This time, I am inviting you to lace up your walking shoes and come with me on a healing walk with Jesus.

In this episode, we are talking about what happens when shame, grief, trauma, and painful memories do not just stay in our thoughts, but seem to show up in our bodies too. We are also looking at a powerful moment in Scripture where Jesus met hurting people while they were still walking through confusion, sorrow, and unanswered questions.

That matters because Jesus still meets women there today. He does not wait until you have it all together. He does not require you to explain everything perfectly. He is not intimidated by the places where your heart still hurts.

This episode is for the woman who has ever wondered:

• “Why do I still feel this in my body?”

• “I know God has forgiven me, but why does it still feel so heavy?

• “Why do I get so easily triggered by certain conversations?”
  

In this episode, I am sharing a gentle, practical invitation to stop carrying shame alone and begin walking it out with Jesus.

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For many women carrying abortion shame, the pain is not only remembered in thoughts. It can show up in the body too. Neuroscience is helping us understand what many wounded women have lived for years; that trauma and shame can affect the nervous system in ways that feel confusing, frustrating, and even frightening.

This episode is for the woman who loves Jesus but still feels stuck.

It is for the woman who knows she is forgiven but still feels shame rise in her body.

It is for the woman who has tried to pray it away, serve it away, worship it away, and work it away, yet still wonders why certain moments seem to pull her right back into the pain.

Friend, this conversation is not about blaming your body. It is not about making trauma your identity. It is not about staying stuck in your story. It is about learning how Jesus meets you with tenderness right in the place where shame has tried to keep you trapped. Press play on this episode and come walk it out with Jesus.

A lot can be said on a front porch swing between friends. Not the polished kind of surface-level “Christian ease” pleasantries. I mean the kind where the tea is sweating in the glass, the world gets quiet for a minute, and somebody finally tells the raw truth.

That is the kind of conversation I want to have with you today.

Look, let’s be real….. There are some things we do not always hear talked about from the pulpit, but that does not mean they are not sitting in the pews.

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Abortion shame is sitting there.

Hidden guilt is sitting there.

Private grief is sitting there.

Religious striving is sitting there.

Fear of being found out is sitting there.

The woman who loves Jesus but still feels disqualified is sitting there too.

And maybe that woman is you?

Maybe it is tied to abortion. Maybe it is tied to a choice you made, a choice you almost made, or a moment you have never been able to fully talk about without feeling that knot rise up in your chest. Maybe it is tied to shame, guilt, fear, regret, or the lie that if people really knew your story, they would never look at you the same. So you keep it tucked away.

You tell yourself you are fine. You stay busy. You serve harder. You try to be a good wife, a good mom, a good Christian, a good friend, a good everything, hoping that maybe if you do enough good now, it will finally quiet what still aches from back then.

But sister, let’s just tell the truth right here on the porch…..You cannot outwork shame and you cannot serve your way into peace.

You cannot stay busy enough to heal a wound when Jesus is asking you to finally bring into the light. I know that is not exactly the kind of sentence we stitch on a throw pillow, but it is the truth. And truth is where the chain starts breaking and the prison door swings open, the question is: are you brave enough to get real with the pain and lay it before Jesus so true healing can happen?

For years, I thought if I just kept going, kept serving, kept showing up, and kept doing all the right Christian things, maybe the pain would eventually go away. Maybe God would see how hard I was trying and decide I was useful again. Maybe I could somehow make up for the places where I felt like I had failed.

Here is where you need to be careful, striving is sneaky. It can look holy on the outside while fear is still running the show on the inside. Sometimes we are not serving from freedom. Sometimes, we are serving from the desperate need to prove we are still worth loving.

Jesus did not die on the cross so you could spend the rest of your life trying to earn what He already paid for. Hear me clearly, this is not about throwing stones at the church. I love the church. I believe in the Body of Christ, the gathering, the Word, the worship, the altar, the shepherding, and the community. I also believe there are women sitting in sanctuaries every week carrying pain they have never had a safe place to say out loud. Silence does not heal shame. It feeds it!

The enemy loves to take one chapter of your life and tell you it is the whole book. He will point to one moment, one decision, one season, one trauma, one secret, and try to convince you it has the final word over your identity. He will call you dirty, disqualified, too far gone, unusable, and forgotten. The enemy is a liar, and honestly, he has been running the same tired playbook since Genesis. Shame, hiding, fear, accusation. Same trash, different outfit.

That is the part that shame does not want you to believe. Shame wants you isolated, but Jesus comes close. Shame tells you to hide, but Jesus calls you by name. Shame says you ruined everything, but Jesus says He makes all things new. Shame says you are what happened, but Jesus says you are His.

There is a big difference between knowing about the grace of God and actually letting yourself receive it in the place where you feel most unworthy. A lot of women believe God forgives other people, but when it comes to their own hidden pain, they quietly live as if there is an exception clause with their name on it. Trust me, there isn’t.

The cross did not almost cover you. The blood of Jesus did not barely redeem your story. His mercy did not run out when it got to the part you are scared to talk about. He is not asking you to perform your way back home. He is inviting you to lay the weight down.

Laying it down does not mean pretending it never hurt. It does not mean minimizing grief or throwing a Bible verse over a deep wound and calling it healed because that is what good church girls are supposed to do.

Real healing is more honest than that. Real healing looks like telling Jesus the truth. It looks like letting Him into the room you have kept locked. It looks like admitting you have been carrying abortion shame, hidden guilt, fear, regret, or self-condemnation longer than you were ever meant to carry it. Then, it looks like letting Him tell you who you are.

Not who shame says you are. Not who fear says you are. Not who the enemy says you are. Not even who you have called yourself in the dark. Who He says you are. Chosen. Loved. Redeemed. Restored. Still His.

That is identity restoration. It is not behavior modification, religious performance, or learning how to look more healed while still bleeding inside. It is coming back into agreement with the truth of God after shame trained you to believe a lie.

Maybe you feel that little pull in your heart right now, that quiet place that says, “I want to believe this is true for me, but I do not know how.” You do not have to have perfect faith to take the next step. You just need enough courage to stop pretending you are fine when you are not. Healing usually starts right there, not in the polished places, but in the honest ones. You do not have to perform here. You do not have to clean yourself up before Jesus comes near. You do not have to explain away your pain or pretend it was not heavy. You can tell the truth. You can stop hiding. You can let the Lord restore what shame tried to steal.

If this is stirring something in your heart and you are ready to stop hiding and start healing, I invite you to book a complimentary connection call. We can talk about what identity restoration and healing God’s way could look like for you.

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You can stop hiding.

You can let the Lord restore what shame tried to steal.

And you can remember who you are.

Your story is not over. Not even close.

There is room on this porch for honest conversations about abortion shame, grief, hidden guilt, religious striving, intimacy with Jesus, and the kind of freedom that does not require a mask.

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What if the biggest obstacle standing between you and healing isn’t your past? What if it’s the thoughts you’ve been believing about yourself ever since?

The problem is often not a lack of faith. It’s an agreement with a lie.

Sometimes those lies sound like:

“God forgives other people, but not someone like me.”

“My past has disqualified me.”

“If people knew the truth about me, they would see me differently.”

“I’ll always carry this shame.”

The longer those thoughts replay in our minds, the more they begin to sound like truth.

In this week’s episode of The Worthy Womb Podcast, we’re talking about fasting, but not the type that you may be thinking. We are not discussing fasting from food; we are tackling fasting from negative thoughts. Fasting from self-condemnation. Fasting from the lies that keep us trapped in cycles of striving, hiding, and fear.

Together, we’ll look at two powerful biblical examples and discover why the thoughts we repeatedly agree with often shape the direction of our lives more than we realize.

Most importantly, we’ll discuss how God’s Word gives us a practical path to renew our minds and walk in the freedom Jesus already purchased for us. If you’ve ever struggled to receive God’s love, forgive yourself, or believe that He can still use your life after your past, this episode was recorded with you in mind.

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In this episode, we are taking a closer look at what happens when negative thoughts become louder than what God has already spoken.

We’ll look at Elijah after his victory on Mount Carmel and how one threatening message sent him into fear, hiding, and isolation. We’ll also look at the twelve spies and how the way they saw themselves shaped the way they saw the promise in front of them.

This conversation takes us deeper into my signature WOMB Protocol™, specifically the “O,” which stands for Overcoming the Lie. In previous episodes, we focused on the “W,” Witnessing the Lie, because before we can overcome a lie, we first have to recognize it. If you missed those earlier episodes, you can go back and listen here:

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If you have ever felt stuck in shame, fear, guilt, or self-condemnation, this episode will help you begin recognizing the thoughts you have been agreeing with and invite you to start replacing them with the truth of what God says about you.

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Some of us know how to fast from food, but we have never learned how to stop feeding the lies. We keep feeding the shame. We keep feeding the fear. We keep feeding the thought that says, “My past has disqualified me.” And the longer that lie plays on repeat, the more it begins to sound like truth.

That is why this episode matters so much.

In this episode, we are going to talk about what it looks like to stop partnering with the voice of shame and start agreeing with the voice of your Father. We are going to look at how fear can pull you into hiding, how negative thoughts can shape the way you see yourself, and how God’s truth can begin tearing down what shame has been building in your mind for years.

Remember…

You are not what shame says.

You are not what fear says.

You are not what your past says.

You are who God says you are.

If, after listening, you realize this is something you do not want to keep walking through alone, I would love to link arms with you. I offer a free discovery call where we can talk about where you are, where you feel stuck, and whether one-on-one coaching would be a good fit for you.

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Friend, you do not have to keep letting shame preach sermons in your mind. You do not have to keep rehearsing the worst parts of your story like they have the final word. They don’t, Jesus does. If this episode stirred something in you, do not shove it back down and keep marching like you’re fine. Bring it into the light. Let the Lord put His truth where shame has been sitting for far too long.

You are not too far gone.

You are not disqualified.

You are not beyond healing.

You are still His.

And there is still a seat for you on this porch swing.

For women carrying the hidden weight of abortion trauma, fear doesn’t just whisper. It settles in and begins rewriting what they believe about themselves. It says you’re damaged. It says you’ve gone too far. It says your story disqualifies you. It says God may forgive you, but He certainly couldn’t use you.

The problem isn’t that you don’t love Jesus. The problem isn’t that you don’t want healing. The problem is that underneath every fear is a lie, and until that lie is exposed, fear keeps driving the car.

In Episode 2 of The Worthy Womb Podcast, we looked at the woman at the well. Shame had her hiding in plain sight, coming to the well at noon to avoid people, avoid judgment, and avoid the pain she carried inside. This is pivotal for you to understand about shame…. shame left unhealed doesn’t stay still. Eventually, it gives birth to fear. Shame pulls you back into your past. Fear steals your future.

Fear sounds reasonable on the inside. “What if people find out? What if they look at me differently? What if I fail? What if God can’t use someone like me after what I’ve done?” That’s what makes fear so dangerous. It doesn’t show up looking like an enemy. It sounds like wisdom. It sounds like caution. It sounds like self-protection. All the while, it’s quietly stealing everything God wants to do in and through your life.

In Episode 3 of The Worthy Womb Podcast, we go deeper into the stories of Hagar and Gideon, unpack the O in the W.O.M.B. Protocol, and talk about what it actually looks like to stop letting fear lead your life and start agreeing with God’s truth.

We see this pattern throughout Scripture….

• Hagar ran because of fear.

• Gideon hid because of fear.

They both believed lies about themselves. They both felt unqualified. They both found themselves in places they never expected to be…..And, God met both of them there.

When we meet Hagar in Genesis 16, she’s running through the wilderness carrying rejection, pain, and uncertainty about her future. Maybe you’ve never run into a physical wilderness, but perhaps you’ve run from healing. Maybe you’ve run from grief. Maybe you’ve run from community because carrying it alone felt safer than risking being seen. Maybe you’ve run from sharing your story because fear convinced you people would see you differently if they knew. Here is the really cool part, God didn’t wait for Hagar to get everything together before He showed up. He met her in the wilderness, right in the middle of her fear. In that encounter, Hagar became the first person in Scripture to give God a name. El Roi, the God who sees me. Not the God who sees my mistakes. Not the God who sees my failures. The God who sees me. Friend, some of you need that reminder today. God sees the grief you’ve never spoken about. He sees the tears nobody knows about. He sees the abortion experience you’ve carried in silence. He sees the fear that keeps telling you to stay hidden, and He has not turned away from you.

Gideon’s fear looked different. Fear didn’t make him run. It made him shrink. When we meet him in Judges 6, he’s threshing wheat in a winepress, hiding from the Midianites. He was still working. Still functioning. Still showing up. But he was doing it from a place of fear.

How many women are doing the same thing? Still serving. Still smiling. Still showing up at church. Still helping everyone else, yet shrinking back from the very purpose God has placed inside them?

What I want you to see about Gideon is that God shows up and calls him something he cannot see in himself. “Mighty warrior.” Gideon sees weakness. God sees purpose. Gideon sees limitations. God sees calling and when Gideon starts giving God every reason he’s the wrong choice, God doesn’t argue with him. He simply says, “I am with you.” Those four words changed everything.

Many women carrying abortion trauma continue to make Gideon’s argument. It may sound something like, “I’m not qualified; I messed up too badly; God could never use me; My story disqualifies me.”

This is what I’ve learned: the lie itself isn’t the problem. Our agreement with the lie is the problem. That’s why the O in the W.O.M.B. Protocol stands for Overcoming the Lie.

• For Hagar, the lie was, “No one sees me.” God’s truth was, “I see you.”

• For Gideon, the lie was, “I’m not enough.” God’s truth was, “I am with you.”

As long as those lies go unchallenged, fear gets to drive every decision we make. Freedom begins when the agreement with the lie ends and agreement with God’s truth begins, not when fear disappears, not when we suddenly feel brave, not even when everything becomes comfortable.

This week, I want to encourage you to sit with Jesus and ask Him two simple questions. “Lord, what lie have I been agreeing with?” Then ask, “Lord, what do You say is true?” Write down what He shows you. Don’t edit it. Don’t overthink it. Just receive it. Then say it out loud.

“Lord, I reject the lie that ______.”

“Lord, I receive Your truth that ______.”

There is power in bringing darkness into the light.

The same God who met Hagar in the wilderness and Gideon in the winepress is meeting women today. Not after they heal. Not after they get everything together. Not after they become brave enough. Right now. In the middle of the questions.In the middle of the grief. In the middle of the fear.

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You are not too broken to be called. You are not too messy to be used. You are not too far gone to be found. The God who saw Hagar still sees you. The God who called Gideon out of hiding is still calling you.

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You didn’t have to. You could have scrolled past, kept the secret tucked where you’ve been keeping it, and moved on. But something in you stirred, and you clicked, and here you are. I want you to know this was not an accident. This was Jesus being intentional about you before you even knew what you were looking for.

So before I say anything else, I need to say thank you. Not a quick, polite, social-media thank-you. A real one. From the part of me who has sat in your shoes, carried what you’re carrying, and wondered if anyone would ever say what needed to be said out loud.

You are the reason this exists.

Maybe this is you…..

You show up on Sunday. You sing the songs. You may even raise your hand during worship. But there is something you have not told a single person in the building. Something you carry out to the parking lot every week, buckle into the car, and drive home with. You sit with it at the dinner table. You carry it into the quiet moments when the house gets still, and the thoughts get loud.

You have been affected by an abortion

And you have been hiding it like it’s the thing disqualifying you from everything else God might want to do in your life.

Let me be clear……

The church has a silence problem.

I love the church. I am not here to tear it down. But I will tell you the truth: the church has not always known what to do with pain from abortion. So, instead of doing the hard thing, we have done the quiet thing. We have preached around it, danced beside it, built programs almost touching it but not quite. As a result, many women have learned this particular wound does not get named in this particular place.

The Worthy Womb exists because we deserve a place where the hard conversation actually gets to happen…where someone will sit across from the weight of what is being carried and not flinch…where we can call it what it is, grieve it like it deserves to be grieved, and then let Jesus do what only He can do.

This is that place.

Jesus is not waiting for you to clean yourself up first.

Religious performance will wear you out. It tells you you have to arrive presentable. Fixed. Further along. It tells you healing is somewhere on the other side of doing enough, being enough, praying enough. So you perform. You exhaust yourself. And the wound stays exactly where it was.

But that is not who Jesus is.

He did not wait for the woman at the well to get her story straight before He sat down next to her. He knew everything she had ever done, everything she was ashamed of, every man, every choice, every secret. And He sat down anyway. He initiated. He went out of His way to be right where she was.

He is doing the same thing with you right now.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here.” 2 Corinthians 5:17

The old is gone. Not buried. Not on probation. Gone. The new is already here, and it has your name on it. Your identity is not up for debate. It just needs to be restored back to what HE says about you, not what shame and guilt have been saying for years.

This is the mission.

One billion women. I know how audacious it sounds. Good. So was the cross.

We are going after every woman sitting in silence in a pew, in a car, in the dark of her bedroom wondering if she is the only one. We are going after her with the truth healing is not only possible, it is available right now. Jesus is not a last resort. He is a first response. Her identity was never actually taken from her. It was buried under guilt and grief and years of performance. But He knows exactly where it is, and He is intentional about getting it back to her.

This is the work. And you are now part of it.

Whether you are here because this is your story, or because you love someone living theirs, or because something just said show up, you are not here by mistake.

Welcome to The Worthy Womb.

The conversation starts here. And it does not stop until every woman who needs to hear it, hears it.

Let’s go.

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She got up this morning and made breakfast for her kids.

She helped her husband find his keys. She got dressed, fixed her hair, and showed up to church looking like she had it together — because she always looks like she has it together. She sang the worship songs. She said amen at the right times.

And the whole time, she was carrying something no one in that building knows about, not even her spouse. Something she has never said out loud. A moment she came so close to — a choice she almost made, a door she almost walked through — and the shame of it has been sitting in the seat next to her ever since.

Maybe that is you?

Maybe you have been sitting in that pew for years, holding your secret like something fragile and explosive at the same time, terrified that if anyone ever found out, they would see you differently. That God already sees you differently. That the woman you almost became — or the choice you made that you cannot take back — has disqualified you from something you cannot quite name but desperately want.

I want to talk to that woman. I want to sit down with you in the third row and tell you what I know to be true.

The Lie You Have Been Living Under

The lie is this: that what happened — or what almost happened — has permanently altered how God sees you. That you crossed a line, or came too close to one, and something in the relationship broke. That you are on the wrong side of grace now. Too far gone. Too compromised. Too complicated for a clean story.

The lie says you can be used by God, but only if you work hard enough. Serve enough. Prove enough. Suppress the memory enough. The lie says healing is for other women. The women with cleaner pasts. The ones who did not almost do what you almost did. The ones who do not wake up at 3 a.m. remembering.

The lie is that you are worthless. The lie is so old, and so loud, and so familiar, that you have started to mistake it for the truth.

What Actually Happened to Me

I know what it feels like to live in this place of lies because I once came to the edge myself. I laid on that cold, lonely table, resolved to follow through with the most painful choice of my life, and to end my pain by taking my own life once I was done. Then, something happened that I cannot explain in any natural terms.

When all hope was lost, Jesus appeared to me and said, “Remember who you are.”

That is all He said. Four words. But those four words shook me back to myself, and I fled. I did not go through with it. I was supernaturally rescued before the procedure was ever performed.

You would think that would be the end of the shame. That I would walk out of that parking lot and into freedom. Sadly, I did not.

For sixteen years, I hid what almost happened, what I had almost chosen it. The fact that I had walked myself to that door. The guilt and shame of how close I had come was enough to swallow me whole. I ran from God. I told myself I was too complicated, too contradictory, too messy for Him to actually want me close to Him again.

When I eventually found my way back, I did what a lot of women do — I got busy. I served. I strived. I became the woman who showed up early and stayed late and checked every box. Martha at full speed, working herself to exhaustion, trying to earn something that was already freely given.

Then one day Jesus got me to sit still before Him — truly still — and in that quiet, I heard myself say out loud what I had never admitted: I feel worthless.

And He said: You are priceless.

Not eventually. Not after you clean yourself up. Not once you have served enough or suffered enough or proved enough.

Priceless. Right now. As you are. In the worst moment of your story.

That is the God I know. That is the God who sees you in the third row.

You are not too far gone.

I want you to understand something about the women I minister to. They are not all women who almost made a choice. Many of them made the choice. They walked through that door. And they have been carrying the weight of it ever since — in the pew, in their marriage, in the hollow place behind their eyes when they try to worship.

The shame you are carrying — whether it is about a choice you made or a door you nearly walked through — it is not the last word on your life. It is not even close to the last word.

But shame does not release itself. It requires a safe place to be brought into the light. It requires someone who will not flinch, who will not pull away, who will sit with you in the full weight of it and say: I know. And you are still priceless.

This Is Why The Worthy Womb Exist

I started The Worthy Womb because I know what it is to sit in that pew holding the secret. I know what it is to look like you have it together while something is eating you alive inside. I know what it is to run from God, and to run back to Him and immediately start performing instead of actually healing.

This podcast is a safe place for the woman who has never said this out loud. The woman affected by abortion — whether that means she made the choice herself, or she almost did, or she was touched by someone else’s choice and has never healed from it. The woman who is sitting in her church completely alone in her pain even when she is surrounded by people.

This is not a podcast about condemnation. It is not about politics. It is not even really about the choice itself.

It is about you. The real you. The daughter God called priceless when you were in your worst moment. The woman He has not given up on and will not give up on. The warrior He is calling to rise.

You have been sitting in that shame long enough. There is a seat for you here.

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Amy Dial is a prophetic identity coach, certified personal trainer, abortion survivor, and founder of Fit 4 The Kingdom Ministries, Inc. She is the author of “Ring of Fire” and a local leader of 40 Days for Life. Her mission is to help women break free from shame and reclaim their God-given identity in Christ. She ministers out of Southeast Texas and virtually to women everywhere who are ready to stop hiding and start healing. Connect with Amy at theworthywomb.substack.com.

Have you learned how to blend in right in the middle of a crowd so that no one really sees you? I was once there too.

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I get it, you love Jesus deeply. You still show up and serve. You still do all the things the “normal” Christians do, and you play the part well as you hold it all together on the outside, but behind the mask, you have buried a deep pain.

As a result, somewhere along the way, you’ve started pulling back little by little, and you learned how to hide in plain sight as an act of survival.

It may sounds like:

• "I'm just tired, I will sit this one out.”

• "I'm okay, I don’t want to burden anyone.”

• "I'm dealing with it on my own.”

In today's porch swing conversation, we're walking down what I call “The Noonday Road” as we look at the woman at the well through the lens of hidden trauma, abortion shame, guilt, and identity restoration.

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Jesus wasn’t lost when He went through Samaria. He was intentional. He sat beside a well and waited.

And friend, He still does that today.

He still sits beside hidden places.

He still reaches toward women carrying grief, guilt, trauma, and stories they’ve never said out loud.

He still says:

“I want all of you. Not the polished version. All of you.

Today, we are talking about:

• Why hiding often begins as survival, not weakness

• How many women unknowingly try to outwork guilt through serving and striving

• Why functioning and healing are not the same thing

• The woman at the well and Jesus' intentional pursuit of hidden pain

• The silent agreements shame causes us to make

• Why silence compounds pain instead of healing it

• How Jesus restores identity and calls daughters back into freedom

What hidden place have you convinced yourself is safer left untouched?

Remember this, sister:

You were never meant to live in the shadows of the sanctuary.

Jesus died to give you inner access.

He sees you fully.

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When Serving God Becomes Hiding from Him

I think there are a lot more “Martha women” in the church than we realize.

Women who love Jesus deeply…
but secretly feel exhausted from constantly trying to prove their worth through serving, striving, performing, and staying busy for God.

In this very first episode of The Worthy Womb Podcast, I’m opening the door to one of the hardest conversations many women are quietly carrying………

What happens when hidden shame turns our relationship with Jesus into performance instead of intimacy?

I share part of my own story of hidden shame after a near abortion, the years I spent trying to “earn” my way back to feeling worthy, and the moment Jesus began showing me that while I felt worthless… He still called me priceless.

🤍 Message me for a free sample of my memoir, “Ring of Fire”, and begin exploring my journey from hidden shame to restored identity through the faithful love of Jesus Christ.

We also begin unpacking the Martha vs. Mary mindset and why so many women become spiritually exhausted trying to work for what Jesus has already freely offered through relationship with Him.

Inside this episode:
• Why hidden shame often leads to religious striving
• The difference between hiding behind service and sitting at the Master’s feet
• Why trauma affects both the mind and body
• A first look into my W.O.M.B. Protocol™ for identity restoration
• The invitation Jesus is still extending to exhausted women today

Friend… you do not have to earn love here.

🎧 Press play and let’s begin the conversation.

You are not too far gone.
And you do not have to carry this alone anymore.

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“Shame keeps women from sitting at the feet of Jesus because it convinces them they have to work their way back into an identity He never took from them.”

“And honestly, I think that’s why the story of Martha hits differently when you’ve lived through hidden shame…”

Ready to stop hiding and start healing?

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The Worthy Womb exists for the woman who is tired of carrying her pain in silence. Through honest conversations, biblical truth, and practical encouragement, you’ll find a safe place to step out of hiding, lay down shame, and discover that your story is not beyond God’s power to redeem.

Meet Amy

I’m Amy Dial, host of The Worthy Womb Podcast, author of Ring of Fire, Identity Restoration Coach, Speaker, and Founder of Fit 4 The Kingdom Ministries. After years of carrying the shame of a near-abortion experience and trying to earn my way back to God through performance and religious striving, Jesus led me on a journey of healing that transformed my life.

Today, I help women come out of hiding, heal from shame, and remember who they are in Christ through coaching, speaking, The Worthy Womb Podcast, and my signature W.O.M.B. Protocol. My passion is helping women uncover the lies shame planted about their worth, encounter the healing love of Jesus, and walk confidently in the identity He has always spoken over them.

When Jesus finally got me to surrender and tell the truth about the pain I had buried for years, everything changed.

The shame I had carried for so long told me I was worthless, damaged, and disqualified. But when I finally brought my brokenness into the light, I discovered something unexpected.

Jesus was not standing there with condemnation.

He was standing there with redemption.

That moment became the beginning of a healing journey that changed the course of my life and showed me that my past was never stronger than His love.

What Jesus did in my life, He can do in yours. Today, I have the privilege of walking alongside women who are ready to stop hiding, stop striving, and experience the freedom that comes from living in the truth of who God says they are.

Credentials & Experience

• Author of Ring of Fire

• Host of The Worthy Womb Podcast

• Certified God Talks Coach

• Identity Restoration Coach

• International Speaker

• Founder of Fit 4 The Kingdom Ministries

The W.O.M.B. Protocol

My signature W.O.M.B. Protocol helps women move from hidden shame and religious striving into restored identity through Christ-centered, Holy Spirit-led healing.

Developed from both my personal healing journey and years of walking alongside women, this framework helps uncover the lies shame has planted, reconnect with God’s truth, and build a life rooted in freedom and identity in Christ.

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It’s Time To Remember Who You Are

Healing is possible.

Freedom is possible.

And your story is never beyond God’s power to redeem.

Let’s Connect!

In this prequel to The Worthy Womb, host Amy Dial shares the truth of her own abortion experience. In 2005, she stood at the doorway of a life-altering choice, trapped by shame, fear, and the lie that her value had been erased. But God had a different ending to her story.

If you’ve been trying to work your way back to God, or if you’re tired of carrying guilt and shame while calling it devotion, it’s time to stop striving. It’s time to sit on the porch, pour a glass of tea, and have the honest conversation you’ve been whispering to yourself.

Your purpose didn’t die. Your calling wasn’t erased. You are chosen, restored, and deeply loved.

In this episode, we cover:

• The Reality of the Past: Why you can never “outwork” or “mask” the pain of an abortion encounter.

• Identity Restoration: The difference between performing for God and fully receiving His free gift of grace.

• A Call to Authenticity: Why it’s time to take off the heavy Christian mask and address the hidden pain.

• The Mission: What to expect from The Worthy Womb podcast as we tackle the hard conversations most people are afraid to have.

Join the movement of women finding their identity in Christ.

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God’s not asking you to earn your way home. He’s just inviting you to lay down the pain and receive your true identity.

”Ready to stop hiding and start healing?

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The conversations about abortion.
About hidden shame.
About religious striving.
About identity.
About grief.
About healing.
About what happens when women spend years performing for worth while secretly feeling disconnected from it.

Too many women are sitting faithfully on church pews carrying silent pain they believe they have to take to the grave. Silence does not heal wounds, and striving does not restore identity.

Healing begins when we stop hiding.

My prayer for this space is simple:
I want women to encounter the real love of Jesus in a way that restores what shame tried to steal.

Through The Worthy Womb Podcast, biblical teaching, trauma-aware conversations, and identity restoration coaching, we are making room for honesty, healing, freedom, and real relationship with Jesus instead of religious performance.

This is a place for the woman who is tired of pretending she is fine.
The woman who still loves Jesus but feels exhausted from trying to earn her way back to peace.
The woman ready to stop hiding on the pew and finally sit at His feet.

I know what it feels like to be that woman. I lived from a place of shame and guilt after my encounter with almost choosing abortion and suicide, letting my past determine how I lived in the present and what I saw for my future. You can read all about it in my recent memoir, “Ring of Fire”, which reached #4 in the Christian Counseling category.

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You are not too far gone.
You are not disqualified.
And you do not have to carry this alone anymore.

I’m honored you’re here.